onegirlgaming

Be strong .. tomorrow will probably come. You don’t need to be anything other than yourself .. you’re designed to feel pain, sadness, anger, hate, happiness, love, hope .. a life without those would be an empty experience .. never stop wanting to feel. You have friends, family, people who love you, care for you and hope you’ll get better one day .. you don’t need to run away forever.

Suffocated by sadness with each day a step downwards .. further away from the life you want but can’t get back to, the worst kind of punishment for nothing – wanting something you can remember and have lost.  Read more...

I know me (mostly) and having spent the last week fretting about going for my exit review at the mental health place in Reading today, it seems like it would be a good idea to sit here and write till my head is a little less crowded. After six months of Cognitive Analytical Therapy and then five months between the last session and my review it’s been nearly a year since the whole thing kicked off and I won’t kid myself and say it was a breeze.  Read more...

As is always the case with my ramblings I get to a stage where I no longer feel able to write down on here what I should probably be writing down somewhere. Yes, I could write a paper diary or even keep a locked blog but it’s not as cathartic for me. By keeping the thoughts private I allow myself to maintain control over the very things I need to expunge from their daily cycles around my brain, that’s what writing is for me (in this context at least) – a way to isolate and explain the emotions that don’t always make sense.  Read more...